I haven't posted in a really long time. Life got way crazy for a while and I started pushing everything I really enjoyed to the side because I couldn't handle trying to juggle so many different things. I don't suggest doing that, because now I feel like I've lost my inspiration for making art and I'm really struggling trying to break through the writer's block that is keeping me from writing even a word. I feel stagnant when it comes to my artistic side. I think partly it's the art classes that I'm taking that are affecting my inspiration also. My teachers force me to make pictures, be they graphics, drawings, or paintings, the way they want me to, and then they judge everything I do with harsh eyes and that just kills any enjoyment I could have in doing the project. It makes me not want to even Think about making a new picture and my creative writing teacher just killed all my inspiration for writing by putting all these rules on how it should be done and by trying to tell me what he thought I should be trying to write about. Pissed me off, but I can't seem to get back to where I was. They clogged up my brain with all this crap and now i'm blocked. I wrote better before the class and had ideas for new stories at least once a week. Now it's like this pressure in my skull when I think about writing. It's really frustrating. Sometimes it's better to just leave good enough alone.

The Dreaded Naked People

Hi this is my first blog. I made it cause i really need an outlet right now. I'm so frustrated because i made this banner for a girl for her story. He're the link to it: http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-7/301131/UnusualLoves(BannerSize).jpg I took months to finish it because of emotional issues that were attached to it. I had hopped that once it was done that all the crap I was feeling would go away, well honestly it did, but now a whole new set of crap has come up over it. my banner has naked people in sexual positions on it, but no nipples or genitalia are showing at all. So why is every board that I post it on censoring it? YOu have to also remember that these are the same boards that have nc17 stories all over the place. My pic is actually only rated R. So why would a picture need to be censored if it is rated less offensive than a story that would basicly be rated the same as a porno? I don't know either. I really shouldn't feel so bad about it. Its not that people are saying that the picture can't be shown at all. Its just that it's been resinged to a link. So if anyone wants to see it you have to click on a link to get it to show up. I guess that would be called Interactive viewing. lol I'm just trying to find some humor here. {Sigh} I'm so glad i made this place. I really needed to vent. I'm feeling better.

toodles